for the past 2 days, my grandma had been hospitalised. she was in for observations due to high blood pressure..i din hav chance to go visit her until shes bac home coz i had night cycling. heard tt she inisisted to go home or anyhow walkwalk during those hospi days, which made the nurses had no choice but to restrict her. when shes awake, they will put her to sit on an armchair by the side n secure the plank used for eating at the chair. jus imagine if i was her, whole day can onli sit there n do nothing. she must hav been beri bored.. i should hav been there to pei her....my heart feels so sour. at first when i heard tt, i was of course angry la! y "tie" my ahma? wads wrong wif walking abt? cant she hav some freedom?? nobody toks to her..shes jus an old lady!! but after tt realised tt if for her own good. coz walking abt may result in fainting which is even more worse. haiz..
reminds me of my late ahgong..he passed away when i was having my pre-prelims in sec4. (tt time no mood n time to study. end up scoring 32 for agg.) anyway, i was the onli family member (together wif the maid) to witness his death when he jus 'went' while sitting on the wheelchair n the maid was cleaning his wounds. tt feeling was beyond words to describe.. its lyk ahgong jus fell asleep peacefully n nv wake up..forever....sob. tt time i was lost. dun noe wad to do..yet i appeared to be quite calm though. called parents n relatives so more.
till now i still wonder if ahgong n i can communicate mentally. rmb tt morning when aunt called n said tt ahgong is not waking up..i was late. worried tt i no time to see ahgong. on the way to his hse, i was saying this to him in my mind.."ahgong, wait for me to reach first before u go.." den i reached to realised tt it was jus a false alarm n my parents were already there before they left for work. moments after they left, the real thing came..ahgong onli had his eldest grandson to sent him off. sob.
i had once thought of how wud i react when its ahma's turn..(not tt im cursing her..but everyone's turn will come right?) ahma was the one tt took care of me when i was young. it was her wrinkled hands tt brought me up for abt 7 yrs since baby. my bond wif her is even closer than tt wif ahgong..think if tt day comes, i will jus cry lyk hell man. (together wif my sis n other cousins, coz she had once taken care of all of us) tt wun be the time to reserve guy's tears.. omg. she had done so much for me(us). but wad hav i done in return..? haiz..my teochew is not as fluent. its difficult to chat wif her. wad can i do den?
