hmph..i feel abit useless. sometimes wanna help her or be wif her..for instance the high jump tdae. she was jus in front of me n i did nth! las time still say wad wanna take good care of her.. ah bish! really wanna approach her immediately, asking her if shes alrite n do something for her. but i will tend to hesitate and 'dun dare' to do in front of other ppl. even if i manage to do, my reactions n the way i speak will be so unnatural. mumble mumble. jus lyk a gal!
haiz..im always so shy when it comes to doing something for someone i lyk in the presence of the others. im not so comfortable to be sweet n nice to her when the others r around. think it feels wierd bahx..tts y i would prefer to be wif her alone. n wif friens (guys/gals) separately. coz whenever shes ard, my attention will be on her..n im not really interested in those things tt the gals r toking abt. den will tend to keep quiet n the others will start to feel wierd tt im not toking. atmosphere becomes wierd wierd de. hmm..maybe i hav bad communicating skills..
but anyway, i hav been bothering james for the past few days. haha. bothering abt her. dun noe y suddenly feel tt shes so chio ever since the metro thingy..err..haha. tt time she was jus standing in front of me. den i managed to glance n her for a while. wah seh..is yue kan yue chio de lor..haha. :x tis impression din changed till now though.
bac to myself..i feel ugly. sobsob. my face is so not nice lor..tts y dun really dare to look straight into her eyes or stand beri close to her..haiz. low in confidence.
