phew..it has really been alternatively days of ups n downs. one day we were given hope n the next, the hope is dashed. tts y cherie cant take it anymore n cried after dennis yeo break the bad news to us jus nw after assembly. she had experienced the changing of kls once due to retaining n to her, its beri difficult to adapt until late jun. well, yeo's explanation is tt nth is gg to change. coz hes afraid tt by shifting us bac to our classes, lots of other things hav to be changed. tis will affect other classes n oso the teachers. haiz. at tt moment, i had no reactions.. feeling was really neutral. wad came to my mind was, "really cannot? if really cannot, den im willing to accept the arrangement".
jus when we were trying to savour the little hope of returning, we discovered tt yeo had a lastest meeting wif mr tan 2days ago. he din noe tt the 4 of us n mr tan actually had a discussion ytd to arrange the time slots. the news tt he had was outdated! at tt moment, the hope was bac again! after confirming wif mr tan, he got bac to us within an hr's time n finally..we r bac to our classes! yay! haha. tis change is not gg to affect our classmates. coz our art will be after their lessns. we all dun mind staying bac late for art since most of the time we r already doing so. thurs will be the longest day for us when we hav to stay till abt 630 for art. the common thinking tt we had is, as long as we can go bac, everything is worth.. wah. sounds wei da. lolx.
im grateful. grateful for everything tt happened. i had been studying, being guai guai n pay full attention in class. coz has been abit outcasted n i dun really lyk mixing wif them. but after these 3 days wif another class, i can actually settle down into studying, taking study as a form of companion. nw im bac to s23, the class where my friends are, the environment where im most comfortable in.. perhaps everything was arranged such tt i will tune myself into studying n not thinking of rubbish, before putting me bac into the environment where i was from. in tis way, my thoughts wud be much simpler n pure, taking study as the priority. tis success of appeal de lai bu yi. it was almost hopeless. i will definitely cherish it.
i once had thought of whether its a gd thing or not to go bac to s23. sometimes not always seeing each other is oso a gd thing? den u will miss n think of the other person, wanting to see her. maybe jus a glance or simply a msg will do. furthermore, see too much may result in problems. but as time passes, these thinking n missing may slowly disappear, ending up to be hi-bye friends onli. even upon meeting, there will be beri little things to tok abt. coz ur understanding of her will be outdated. maybe she hav changed, but u dun noe..
well, im not sure of the ans n will not think further. anyway, nw j2 le. A levels is oso beri impt. i hav to tone down, if not both parties may suffer when it comes to studies. so instead of jio-ing her, i will be trying to take gd care of her bahx. anything more den tt, after grad den say...
